Week 5

I lost two pounds last week! I am pleasantly surprised, I hardly exercised and I didn't track calories most of the week(sick). I went to the grocery store with my dad on Thursday and I bought mint M&M's, plain M&M's and cookies 'n' cream ice cream. I'm proud that I bought the smaller pack of M&M's, but not proud that I hate both right when I got home. The ice cream I have been good with, still have half the carton! (That I know of, I haven't had ice cream since Friday and my family might have helped themselves.)
I believe one of the reasons I lost weight last week is that I watched my portions. I didn't make the best decisions, popcorn for lunch, but I made sure to follow the serving sizes instead of over doing it. This week though I am excited to get back into exercising.
I think the reason I'm into exercising is that I watch a TV show on Netflix and it helps the time fly by. I get to watch TV and do something productive instead of feeling guilty. It took me some time, but I finally found a way to exercise that I enjoy and not something that I have to force myself to do. Although, some days it can be a fight, but I always feel great afterwards.
In four weeks I have lost 5 lbs. It honestly doesn't feel that great of an achievement  I was hoping to have lost more, but the important thing for me to focus on is that I AM losing!  Starting on week 5 the urge to binge has lessened, mostly, but I worry that the day after my challenge ends I'll "celebrate" with a too big meal. That is one thing I am having a hard time with, not rewarding myself with food. I need to look up ideas on other ways to praise my hard work, instead of destroying 6 weeks of hard work in one meal. I know I will binge in the future, I just hope that I can do it less often and get back into my healthy habits that I am trying to form.
My mini challenge for this week is to apply to at least one job a day. Today I applied to two jobs! A friend at work told me about another online job site, simplyhire.com, and I am going to look more into it tomorrow.
I am sad that I didn't get to donate plasma today. My iron was too low,35, and it has to be a 38. I take iron supplements, this is crazy! I usually go Monday and Wednesday but since it's "the time of the month" I cancelled my Wednesday appointment since I'll probably be low that day too. The nurse mentioned eating more beans, yuck, and leafy green foods. I think on days that I donate I'll take a salad and tuna and see if that helps raise my numbers. I like donating plasma, it's an easy part-time job. I notice I am  more health cautious when I donate because I have to be at certain levels and money is a good motivator for me. I didn't donate last week, sick, but I am hoping to use the money from donating for my sick time so I can save my time for a mini trip or for days I feel like cutting.
Next week is my last week! I need to start thinking of a new challenge to do, I'll have to check out other bloggers and see what they do to mix things up.
10/7/2012 227lbs only 62lbs to go! I am going to come up with mini weight goals, that will help me feel better!